I have feelings. Good for me!

There is a saying – God makes a way where there is no way – and I think that is true. The cosmos is larger than what we can incrementally measure. The vastness of space itself and its comparison to the most infinitesimal microscopic elements is virtually impossible to fathom mentally without the aid of adding machines. And yet, here we are, trying to piece together the puzzle of the universe with what limited sensory facilities we have. Assuming that God does exist, that the gravitational constant is really set by someone, and it is wisely set at this delicate optimal attractive force, and that there is somehow some kind of order to this world leads us to feel secured that the energy that makes us who we are will carry us to where we need to go. And yet, no one can answer all the questions. One of these questions would be “why allow suffering to exist?” Other thinkers I have read suggest that the lack of suffering and pain would lead us to become numb – an anesthetized state – equating an almost deathly existence. If one does not feel pain, then one will not be able to protect oneself from harming oneself. The reason why lepers break their fingers off is that they do not know how much force to exert to do day-to-day tasks. Their deformity is made by the lack of ability to feel pain. When you are numb, you do not know how much pressure to use to caress someone. When you are numb, the amount of push is not felt. You can break yourself over the long run if you cannot feel pain. Incisions are not felt at all. So back to the gravitational constant, or the molecular attraction based on the amount of mass of object A and object B. If object A consists of electrons that attract to object B’s proton, then there is a molecular bond. If both A and B are of the same charge, the two will keep their distances or bounce off in space, and yet, in an empty space like a vacuum, two masses of larger scale than the afore mentioned molecules are attracted to each other and will keep close. Now, if I press on a numb person’s skin with the molecules that make up my hand, at a certain point, the numb person will feel resistance and not pain, and I on the other hand will feel pain as well as the resistance. We leave traces of ourselves on each other. When I touch this keyboard, molecules of my skin, my sweat, and the microscopic traces of me is left on the machine, and yet at the same time, the machine leaves traces of itself on me. I can smell the rubber covering of the keyboard pad on my fingertips. I feel the dust of the machine on me. Perhaps that is how sexual acts binds persons together as well. And maybe, in the same way, the earth, so small a planet, leaves traces of itself on its neighbors. So if the energy that constitutes me shall fade, the law of conservation of energy will surely direct my being’s energy elsewhere. It is so bad to think that one day the use my molecular energy will be to fuel plant life, or to be expressed in heat, or light, or to whatever that follows? Using our own tangible, tactile and visible senses, the reality of the energy going elsewhere seems to be the fate of our energy. The vibrant order of the body’s metabolism, cognitive processes, and the regulatory electrical impulses will have a hundred percent chance of ceasing. The fear of this coming is not uncommon, and yet for it not to happen is grotesque, for what good is a decaying pulsing warn out body when compared to the renewal and the renaissance of birth? How easy it is to make life? And yet, how fragile is this life that it takes years to sustain it for a brief period outside the great big spinning ball that we call home? So perhaps God does make a way when there is no way, for look, we do live in a spinning ball, tilted on its axis to create the four seasons. We circle the large burning mass with enough repulsion and attraction. There. Voila.

Oh my God! I am caffeine sensitive! Our language and its uses are to be considered by anyone reading anything. Did I borrow too much here, Ludwig Wittgenstein? Was I using language in a special way? And then, may I ask -- who can use it right?

Question: Who is God?
Answer: That’s for each of us to find out for ourselves at our own risk. Good luck!